ecstasy/despair

Chest caving in

One gasp of air

Then suffocating 

Again

Thick yellow fat

Oozing down into my

Lungs 

Can’t breathe

The light of freedom

Still fresh in my

Mind

Tired now 

This marathon 

Taking every drop of

Energy

Muscle fibres weakening

Bones splintering

Persevering 

I must rest

And finish this 

Tomorrow 

Plodding forward 

Heavy lead foot after 

The other 

The ecstasy and

Despair, quickly interchangeable

Like the weather 

Dizzy from the descent 

But I know I will rise 

Again

I still taste the fresh 

Kiss of freedom 

Remember it’s air as it

Slid into my lungs

Now clogged and 

Not breathing

But

They will breathe 

Again