goodbye

I am afraid

to leave,

but still,

I’ll

go.

too much of

myself

is held back

in your

presence.

i fear your 

judgement

and

disappointment.

gossip,

I know,

will spread.

but I need to be

free

to be

who I am 

my mind needs to 

roam

question and

explore,

I can’t accept your 

truth 

as my own

anymore

do you care about me?

or am I

a number,

a faceless

cash

cow

filling a

seat?

do you

see me?

or see through..

i am not

happy

with you

and I deserve

happiness.

locked up for 

too long,

now is my time 

to untie these

leather 

bonds,

muzzle and

chains,

like the stranger 

who is a

ghost

i don’t know..

am i the ghost?

as you

don’t

know

me

I will not pretend

I will not fear

I will be me.